#NewspaperFRTabloidLeParisienBerangereLepetit 'I have regrets but I can live with': Sacha, 19, goes become Anna again Until he was 14, Sacha (the first name has been changed) was called Anna. After telling his parents that he wanted to change gender, he transitioned during his high school years. Before a 'descent into hell' at 18 when he realized that he regretted his choice. Adolescence arrives and the 'great malaise'. We are in 2016, in a small town in the Paris region. In college, he spends time in front of the Internet. While watching videos on YouTube, he hears about trans identity for the first time. It's a revelation: 'I said to myself: It looks like you. ' At the beginning of the 3rd, at 14 years old, he cuts his hair and asks his friends to call him with a male name. Adopt an androgynous look. One evening, a few weeks later, he announces to his parents that he is trans and wants to take male hormones. His parents listen to him, attentive, benevolent. 'Except that I was 14 years old, and listening to what someone 14 years old is saying is problematic,' he says now. Then everything goes very, too quickly: the renowned psychiatrist he is going to consult in Paris, the 'expeditious' sessions of five to ten minutes which only serve to confirm his choice. 'I was put on track. At no time did the deep reasons that led me to Then everything goes very, too quickly: the renowned psychiatrist he is going to consult in Paris, the 'expeditious' sessions of five to ten minutes which only serve to confirm his choice. 'I was put on track. At no time were the deep reasons that led me to change sex addressed'. At the end of the second, the first injections of testosterone begin, one ampoule every three weeks. Every morning, Sacha puts on a binder (compressive underwear to flatten the chest) of which he still has a bitter memory: 'I was very athletic and it suffocated me. Often I couldn't breathe. ' In the civil status, for high school, her relatives, her family, Anna becomes Sacha. To his great satisfaction, the effects of the 'T' come quickly. Hairiness. The salient muscles that develop. The deep, manly voice. Sacha is 'very happy', he recalls, especially since those around him welcome these changes without surprise or judgment. 'In high school, where I didn't know anyone at first, I was just the guy who moved a little fast, a little late, but that was okay. ' The summer before senior year, he had his breasts removed under general anesthesia. 'I was obsessed with the idea of being able to pass the sports test at the baccalaureate while breathing,' he recalls. After the operation, the high school student is now 16 years old, a postoperative corset, painkillers galore and, suddenly, questions assail him. 'There was a weird voice inside me. Something that asked me: Are you destroying your life? Are you destroying your body? ' Months pass. Sacha does not quite manage to tame this new body but keeps quiet about her anxieties. We are in 2020 and the Covid epidemic is falling on France. The high school student passes an 'applied arts' baccalaureate in front of a computer screen. He won it with honors and then joined, as desired, a drawing school. One day, shortly before Christmas, doubts suddenly rise. It's 'the descent into hell', he says. For two or three... "
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